[Oh. Oh, that's a bit close to home, even when he's in politics-mode.]
[There's a few moments of hesitation before he begins to type, and perhaps it's that sympathy that draws actual honesty from him.]
I was terrified. I knew that I couldn't go home, and that if I did go home it would only be to spend the rest of my life on the run from my own past - and even so, yes, I missed my old life. I still do. I wanted to stay human, to have my magic returned, to be who I always was.
But that was what forced me to grow from it. Facing what I feared most - to be nothing, to be a helpless shadow, to be quite literally kept from the light - helped me to realise that I could be stronger, and that I wasn't doomed to be nothing more than the pampered pet of a family in need of a figurehead. I fought it every step of the way, and that's why I know that it was a lesson I needed.
Yes, I was scared. To tell you the truth, I'm still scared sometimes. But I've come to the conclusion that the freedom She offers - to me, and perhaps to you - is not so much in where I am or where I can go, but in who I am when I'm there.
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Date: 2020-09-27 10:48 pm (UTC)[There's a few moments of hesitation before he begins to type, and perhaps it's that sympathy that draws actual honesty from him.]
I was terrified. I knew that I couldn't go home, and that if I did go home it would only be to spend the rest of my life on the run from my own past - and even so, yes, I missed my old life. I still do. I wanted to stay human, to have my magic returned, to be who I always was.
But that was what forced me to grow from it. Facing what I feared most - to be nothing, to be a helpless shadow, to be quite literally kept from the light - helped me to realise that I could be stronger, and that I wasn't doomed to be nothing more than the pampered pet of a family in need of a figurehead. I fought it every step of the way, and that's why I know that it was a lesson I needed.
Yes, I was scared. To tell you the truth, I'm still scared sometimes. But I've come to the conclusion that the freedom She offers - to me, and perhaps to you - is not so much in where I am or where I can go, but in who I am when I'm there.
Does that make sense?